Wednesday, July 14, 2010

When the leaves fall...


22 weeks pregnant with our sweet twins

It was not my intention to go so long without giving an update. I'll try and be better. It has taken my body and mind a couple weeks to come to terms with my new normal and get used to being on this medicine (it keeps my resting heartrate at 120 beats per minute...so I feel like I am running a marathon even though I am laying down. It also makes my hands shake like I have Parkinson's...but, that has gotten a little better). I am mostly in good spirits though. I have a day here and there where I feel really down in the dumps, but I've had some really great days too. I have REALLY enjoyed spending more time with my dad (who has been watching Ella for me most days of the week). He'll spend the night for a few nights and has been great with Ella. Of course, he spoils her rotten...but, she is very loved. Ella is loving that someone is letting her eat doughnuts for breakfast and dessert every day of the week! This would have made the old me crazy...but, the new me is just so grateful to have people take care of her and love her.

I have been hesitant to say that this past week has been uneventful (for the most part, that is). The babies are still holding tight and seem to be growing well. I have managed to acquire enough medicine on my dresser to open a small pharmacy. I shudder to think how much this pregnancy would cost us without insurance...my medication pump alone (not including the medication itself) is $130 a DAY to rent. I'm so grateful that, so far, we have not had any problems with our insurance helping pay. Praise God that that is one stress that we have not had to endure as of yet.

I have come to terms that I'm not going to have this fairy tale pregnancy where I strut around with a glow and cute maternity dresses around the mall or park. I really don't want to look back on all this and think "that was an awful few months." Hard, yes...but such a blessing in many ways as well. I have gotten to spend so much special time with friends and family (because of my need for all day help with Ella), that I never would have gotten before bed rest. Don't get me wrong, I HATE depending on people for everything. I HATE that my time with Ella is so limited and that her whole world has been changed by my lack of being able to care for her. I cherish our time of coloring in bed, having picnics in bed, and snuggling while watching "Pwincess Foggy" (interpretation: The Princess Frog) for the 500th time. She says that "mommy has a booboo"...that seems to make sense to her. Hopefully she won't think the babies are a "booboo" when they get here. Ha!

Speaking of my sweet little love...this is what happens when mommy is on bed rest and grandaddy lets her pick out her own outfit...
She gets her sense of style from her daddy.

Dear Ella,
Your laughter, sense of humor, and love have seen me through many long hours the past couple weeks. You have adapted to all this change so well. I look forward to the cool fall breeze and watching the leaves change colors and fall from the trees with you. Although life will be busy with the three of you, I know that you and I will once again hold hands through the park, swing on the swings, and read "Alice in Wonderland" (your favorite book right now!) again. When the leaves fall, know that I will be waiting to jump in the leaves with you...hand in hand.
Mommy

10 comments:

Jess said...

You look beautiful with your sweet babes growing!

Isn't it amazing the way you get to see Jesus in those around you when you are forced to depend on other people? I remember that being my favorite thing about the time when my husband was dying, it was the bright spot in my day to look for "God sightings" around me. He is everywhere, always with you!

Praying for you regularly!

J said...

Hooray, hooray, hooray! Your are BEAUTIFUL!!! And those babies in your belly...WOWOWOWOW!!!!!! I am so thankful God is providing for your every need. And I am rejoicing with you over those babies. Ella looks absolutely precious. I especially love the way she's wearing the hat with the glasses. Adorable.

Continuing to pray for you all!

Carol said...

That is the funniest picture I've seen in a while! I'm so glad that the babies are still cooking inside you and that you have managed to stay sane on bedrest.

Tabitha said...

Amazing. YOu will be blessed for your ability to look at a scary situation and find the good in it...praying for you, girl. And don't forget to keep P.U.S.H-ing! :)

Brenna said...

I know your cousin Shelley, and our Sunday School class has been praying for you. I also have boy/girl twins so that fact that you are expecting the same just makes my heart go out to you that much more. Continue trusting the Lord for one day at a time and know that those days that you see "one set of footprints, those are the days He is carrying you!" Praying for a long time on bedrest and delivery of two healthy miracles for you!

Angela said...

I laugh when people refer to "bed rest" as a vacation they desire! To a pregnant mama, especially, with more than one it is work, but in a different way. It's more emotional and sometimes spiritual and uncomfortable after awhile....But one that those who are in bed don't take for granted, because YOU have the biggest job of all right now... cook'n those miracles!

You've been on my heart alot and I check often to see how things are! Congratulations on 22wks! That's awesome! And so glad you took the time for a beautiful pg photo! Do it for yourself and for these babies! God's richest blessing on you and your growing family!

Southern Gal said...

You look beautiful. And Ella's outfit is fab.

Amber said...

You have the cutest belly! I hope you and the twins are still doing good. Keeping you in my prayers.

servantsheart said...

That picture of Ella with her hat and everything made me laugh. I have an Ella myself...literally. My middle one is Ella and she is 3 and her sense of style is something else. :)

You are a beautiful momma-to-be and I have stopped right now to pray for the sweet babes in your belly.

Blessings.

paula said...

oh my her outfit is adorable and you look gorgeous. You are doing amazing! so excited for you, but it must be hard.

found out after my surgery that no more babies will be in our future. My Mr. was done anyway though.