I haven't been in hiding on purpose. We've been a little occupied with vomit over here. Blech. That was definitely my first mommy experience with a child with a stomach bug. Ella has vomited before from coughing really hard, but not this stomach stuff. Yuck. Ok, enough about that.
In other news, I quit my job. Resigned, got a "are you coming back or not phone call", whatever you want to call it. I know it is the right decision for my family right now, but it was really hard for me to do. Even though I haven't been there since I went on bed rest last June, it was still very heartbreaking for me say goodbye to my job. The truth? I feel very lost in this stay at home mom role, even though I have been doing it for awhile now. I know it is an honor to be able to stay at home with my children while they are small...and I definitely LOVE being with them and do NOT want to leave them for one single day. But, it is different and something I am going to have to get used to.
The thing is, in being a nurse, I did something that made a difference. I got a lot of self worth out of what I did outside the home. I have plenty of friends and people to get my "adult interaction" from...but, it doesn't satisfy my need to give of myself to people. I am praying God will open my heart and a door to a cause that could bring glory to Him as well as fill that void I have.
I've also thought about quitting my photography business...or at least quitting it in a paying sense. I still feel like God has a great plan for that in my life, but I am not sure having a "paying gig" is what it is...nor is it really what I am after.
I don't know. God definitely has the greater picture already picked out for me. I'm just waiting. In the meantime, I am feeling a little lost as to what I am supposed to be doing. Although I know I am preparing little warriors for Christ, I still feel like I'm not doing anything to...well...contribute to the status quo if you will.
Thoughts? Anyone else gone through this?