Saturday, March 14, 2009

A Little More than I deserve...

As a whole, I probably spend more time on my knees pleading to God to rid me of all my sorrows and stress. I beg Him to change any situation I am unhappy with and to rid me of all those mundane things that keep me awake at night. But, is it really possible that I am now on my knees telling God it is TOO MUCH GOODNESS?Is is really possible to be too happy or full of joy?

I am not sure where these feelings stem from. I am not trying to say that my life is perfect...but, lately I feel as though God has blessed me more than I deserve. I do not feel worthy of all the goodness in my life...but, I feel a little nervous admitting this...God might send a hail storm my way!!
Or is it possible that I have just grown so much spiritually that I have given my burdens to Him and finally decided to trust Him. Being the control-freak, obsessive compulsive person that I am, is it possible that God has finally broken me? I have prayed for this day; a day where I stop worrying so much...a day where I look at how much I have been given.
I know everyone thinks they have the best husband in the world...but, I truly am married to one of the most amazing men who ever walked this earth. Part of his beauty is that he is so humble and does not realize how great he is. He is wonderful to everyone who crosses his path and NEVER expects anything in return. Shouldn't we all aspire to be this way? 
And of course, it is no question how blessed my life is because of Ella. She has filled my heart when I did not know it was even empty. She has helped me understand life in a while new light. She makes me want to be a better person. We do not deserve her, but so grateful that God gave her to us. I will never forget the moment she first appeared in our lives 
I am so blessed in love...from my child, my husband, my really is more than I deserve. 

Saturday, March 7, 2009

Spring is Near!

Last Sunday, it, of course, this weekend it was 75 degrees (sarcasm). The weather in Georgia in March is always crazy like this. Nonetheless, it was so beautiful this weekend, we went for a walk at a new park near us. I was shocked to see that the daffodils  were already blooming. So, I just had to stick my beautiful little girl in a field of one of my favorite flowers. Throw in a fabulous picnic lunch prepared by the love of my life, a walk through the park with our daughter on Andrew's shoulders, and seeing Ella's smiling face while swinging on the swing set...and I could not have asked for a more perfect day on a "hint of Spring" Saturday afternoon.

Isn't she just a little doll? 

Picking our favorite from the bunch...

My little family!

Dear Ella,
Whenever I use to go to the park, I would see these families who looked so happy. I was envious...all I ever wanted was my own little family to take picnics with in the park. Today, we were that family! That family I use to dream about before you were born. Nothing could have made this day more perfect. Watching you smile while your daddy pushed you on the swings is a moment I will always remember and cherish. I love you a thousand times!