I was in the car with Ella the other day and she was singing "Jesus loves me" at the top of her lungs. It is such a simple and old song...one I have heard 5 million times growing up. But, something she sang struck a cord with me. In the song, there is a sentence that says "little ones to Him belong." For some reason, I found myself pondering this verse all day long. You see, our children whether they are biological or adopted ALL belong to Him. We are all foster parents. All children are given to us from God to raise up to know Him.
With this newest insight, I have changed the title of this blog to "To Him Belong"...because in reality, Ella, Jacob, and Audrey all belong to God. Andrew and I are simply God's chosen people to raise these beautiful children.
I am also changing directions a little with my blog. You will still here me ramble about the funny things Ella does and you will still watch these preemies grow and thrive...and hopefully soon listen to me ramble about being the mother of 3 precious, precious children. But, what I really feel called to do is talk more about my struggles and hardships of life and motherhood. I feel called to be open and honest.
Let's face it. We can all post pretty pictures of our kids and talk about how wonderful life is. Don't get me wrong...life IS WONDERFUL. But, life behind the pretty pictures can also be hard, challenging, etc. I want to encourage others that the things they feel are normal. I want to tell you about my struggles with faith, my struggles with anxiety, and my struggles with being a GOOD mother.
I want you to see beyond the pretty pictures. Please continue to walk along side me and leave me some comments now and then.