I'd love to make an entire post of all the things I hope to accomplish and/or change in this new year, but I think I can sum it all up in one: This year, I refuse to keep waiting on all the things I wish to happen while my life passes me by. If I continue down this path of "wishing for more or better things", I will miss out on lots of this...And lots of gorgeous little smiles and waves....
And walks through the neighborhood and park in Ella's favorite new toy (a red Radio Flyer Wagon). Before I know it, my little lady will grow into a woman and I don't want to spend her precious life focusing on what I don't have. Because really, if you looked at the picture below, wouldn't you think God has given me every woman's dream?
That's because He has. He has given me ABUNDANTLY more than I deserve...more than I ever dreamed. And although my heart will continue to yearn for more children, I STILL have one more child than a lot of women have. Many woman are still praying and yearning for a picture like that one above. They are waiting to play in the leaves in the freezing cold with a beautiful child in their winter coat, to see a child that looks like them smile, and to take a Christmas photo. They are still waiting to pull their child in a wagon and sing "Head, Shoulders, Knees, and Toes" to them.
No, I will not miss out on this life God has given me while I wait on those other things I still desire. I will not be complacent, but I WILL be content!
A few posts ago, I talked about how one of my dreams came true when I finally got to take Ella to ride the Pink Pig at Macy's (an Atlanta Christmas tradition). This year, Andrew and I are making a list of all the dreams we had for our family in the past. We are making a list of all those places we said we would take our children to, when and if God ever gave us a child. Each month, we are going to do something on that list with Ella. This year, we are going to make memories with her. This year, we are going to LIVE.
And we will thank our Lord every time we get to make a precious memory with the beautiful child He has already given us.