Friday, December 16, 2011

So She Dances

There is a song by Josh Groban "So She Dances" from his Awake album (around 2006) that I have always loved. Technically, I love the entire album, but I used to day dream about having a little girl who would be a little ballerina...full of poise, grace...a little girl who doesn't realize how beautiful she is. Although that isn't really what the song is about, the music box melody to the song will have you envisioning something of this sorts.

It is often sweet and humorous to think of the day dreams I had before becoming a mother. Although most of our day dreams don't end up being completely accurate, it is such a BEAUTIFUL and special moment when we get to experience one of our previous day dreams.

Perhaps my hopes for my girls are very high, but I do still day dream of my girls having poise, grace, and good manners. I often find myself telling Ella "that isn't lady like" or "you need to behave like a lady". I guess this is because I see so many women who do not respect themselves or "dumb themselves down" in front of men and it breaks my heart. To me, there is nothing more beautiful than a woman who carries herself with respect for herself. Call me old fashioned. (And I don't claim to have always exemplified this behavior. I have found myself in my youth to have dumbed my self down to play the "cute" card...only to find out the only thing it does is make you seem like an airhead.)

So, I digress. One of the beautiful things about children is when you get to experience something you always day dreamed about. For me, it was watching my little girl do ballet last week at Parent's Observation Day. I had no expectations. In fact, I fully expected her to do very little and not participate too much. After all, she is only 3.

But, I will tell you, my eyes were full of tears of happiness and my heart pitter-pattered as I watched my little lady show an audience grace and poise. I was shocked she knew the French words for the different ballet positions. The entire time I thought about that song "So she dances" and how I had day dreamed about having a little girl with poise who danced around with such sweet elegance. It was a dream come true for my soul.

It is these moments that remind me why motherhood is so worth all the hard work and sleepless nights. It is worth the all-day-long battle to teach your children manners. I am so thankful when God lets me experience these moments...they are what helps me stay motivated to work hard as a mother. Sometimes we all, whether you are a mother or not, just need to see that our efforts are not in vain. We need small glimmers like seeing our child smile and dance with passion.

A waltz when she walks in the room
She pulls back the hair from her face
She turns to the window
To sway in the moonlight
Even her shadow has grace


Andrea said...

How incredibly sweet! I remember those little ballerina days, like yesterday, and I miss them...nothing like slipping on a tutu and forgetting everything!

Anonymous said...

SO adorable!!!